I have reached an important point in my life. Once again I am trusting God to direct my path for the next step I am taking.
Although God has always come through for me in the past I have to be honest with you and admit that it’s still scary and I still have to battle doubts.
Trusting and waiting on God is not easy. I am not good at it.
For the past 30 years I have been employed with the same organization and now I am eligible to retire. This has given me the opportunity to make a change. It is both exciting and scary.
I think we all get that scared feeling in our stomach when we face big changes and decisions in our lives. This is a huge one for me. Even with trusting God, I still get that scared feeling.
God has always come through for me. Throughout my whole career I can look back and see how God has guided my path and arranged circumstances for me even when it didn’t look that way at first. I remember many years ago when I first applied for the job I have had for the past 25 years, after my interview one of the managers told me very bluntly that they weren’t going to offer me the job. He told me they were going to hire someone from outside of the office. The next day there was a hiring freeze which ultimately opened the door for me to lateral into the job. That was more than merely a coincidence.
God says “For I know the plans and thoughts that I have for you,’ says the LORD, plans for peace and well-being and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” (Jeremiah 29:11) but the problem is that He doesn’t always share those plans with us. That part can be frustrating and not knowing can stress us out.
A friend has saying in Spanish: Lo tuyo viene.
Yours will come.
As I conduct my job search and have interviews with prospective employers I wonder if it will come. I have to remind myself to keep calm and don’t try to force it. What may look like the right opportunity may not be the one. I must admit it’s hard not to overthink things during this process.
Peace plays an important role with trusting God right now.
Jesus assured us about it:
Peace I leave with you; My [perfect] peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be afraid. [Let My perfect peace calm you in every circumstance and give you courage and strength for every challenge.] John 14:27
That’s pretty clear isn’t it? It is, but it’s so hard to do.
I’m trusting but I’m still scared. I don’t mean to feel this way but it’s scary not to have control. Even with past evidence of how God has worked before, this another one of those big events in my life when I trust again.
God is in control of my career path and I still trust Him. I don’t see it right now and I don’t know where I am going but it will come. You never know how strong your faith is until it is tested.
What if I make the wrong decision? What if I screw up the process?
Asking a bunch of “what ifs” can drive you crazy. If I make the wrong decision I will learn from it and God will use it. He’s not much of a God if my wrong decision can screw up His plan.
So I take the next step blindly but trusting God and leaving the results up to Him.